I’m having a real think about whether or not to carry on with this blogging and twittering lark. Its a result of going on holiday where we had no Internet access and the computer wasn’t just sat there in the corner of the room. I couldn’t pop over to it to catch up vicariously on peoples lives or to write a bit here and there. I felt like I was freed from its grip, the temptation wasn’t there, I spoke to my husband. Although he managed to play Championship Manager a lot of the time, so he may or may not have been listening to me.
I have to say that, I really, really love blogging, it has been a feature of having kids. I’ve met some brilliant people, Ive got some great stuff to review. However, I do think that recently its become a bit more competitive than it used to be. I can’t say that I’m not disappointed for not getting into any of these top lists EVER. The fact is that I am. I get a fair few hits, lots of requests from PR firms. Even the chance to review a few different web-sites sites pre-launch. However, the main-stay of my writing work has always been academic stuff through my job. Magazine articles, dull, dull highly academic articles, a book, exhibition panels and lectures so boring that I often wonder mid-stream if I’ve already spoken about something. Yes, they do seem to go down well. But I don’t want to do them anymore.
I think perhaps, the reason that I’m having these thoughts is that I’m due to have an operation in a few weeks and I’m reassessing parts of my life. I feel the urge to chuck out lots of stuff and I want to create a really good impression of motherhood, in my kids minds. Just in case. I don’t want them to remember me sitting at the computer. I want them to remember me playing with them, showing them how to do stuff, do doing domestic things. Its not that I don’t do this, its more that I do seem to spend an increasing amount of time at the computer. Have I become addicted to blogging and the Internet? No, but I do enjoy the camaraderie of talking to other adults during the sometimes painfully long days with a toddler and baby.
So, the question at the moment is whether to move the computer upstairs to the study, blog very occasionally, give up totally and do other more homely type things and actually read a book or just put this down as a little phase I’m going through. Should I go back to basics? Don’t feel obliged to comment, I’m having a bad day.