Nearly four years of sleep deprivation, if I count Toddler Boy's pregnancy where he kept me awake kicking my bladder most of the night and I think I am succumbing to some of its effects. I already had some of the so called side effects such as slight madness, so I can't count those. However, strange anxieties about my children seem to now plague my night-time hours. Here is a sample of this months silly, but actually fairly reasonable anxieties:
- That Fifi will climb into the washing machine and Toddler Boy will shut her in and turn it on.
- That either child will get their fingers trapped in the patio doors, or that their fingers will get chopped off by the patio doors.
- A child will strangle themselves with hubby's tie
- A child will open the freezer and everything will melt and flood the kitchen and ruin the hall carpet
- That suddenly the weight of water in the bath will be too much for the floor and it will fall through
- Fifi will kick back against the table whilst in her highchair and smash into the fish tank causing it to break and flood, hurt her and kill the fish
- That I am trapped in a cycle of illness; taking child to doctors for illness, catching new bug, taking child to doctors....
- That someone will drive into my car whilst the children have unstrapped themselves (their current challenge)
I could continue, but now I'm a bit worried I have pointed out some things for you to worry about.
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Hugs- not fun is it? :s
Again something I know so well. I have fear about escalators in shops too
Its totally normal (and you're right exacerbated by a lack of sleep) - I've recently found myself worrying over silly things, not least that Toddlergirl could somehow fall off her chair and through our patio door ... not idea why its suddenly hit my consciousness
I hope you get a good nights sleep soon and start to feel more balanced
Unfortunately it has a name....being a parent. It gets worse, you just have to make sure you don't let it overtake your life.
I worry a lot more now than I did when I was younger...sometimes I think it's because I am responsible for the children on my own.
Everytime toddler screams I can feel myself visibly pale worrying what he has done...he doesn't help, he is constantly doing something.
Lack of sleep does make it worse, please try not to get too sucked into the worry though. xx
Sleep deprivation can definitely make you feel a bit fragile can't it. I recognise a couple of those anxieties namely the kids somehow strangling themselves and i've also had the one about the bath going through the ceiling. I recently passed my driving test so that's opened up a whole new world of worries. Hope you get some proper, good quality sleep soon.
I used to dream / worry that my boys would walkout of the house and into the sea. But after a while I just wanted the sleep... zzzz
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