And, then my shirt ripped

The downward slope happened last year, I put on a little bit more weight, my colleagues commented I was getting plump. I tried to do something about it, I have been doing fitness videos and YourShape on the Xbox occasionally. However, I have been under a great deal of stress. Really, a lot of stress at work. I feel a constant worry about my future; whether I will actually have  a job, whether we will be able to pay the mortgage. For the last few month we have spent less and less on food. I wish to decorate Fifi’s room and we have the original 1968 bathroom in our house which is very near the end of its life. I have been saving cash. Fruit costs money, much more than biscuits. You can see where I am heading…

On the second day of actually feeling a bit thinner I bent over and my shirt ripped. The indignity. From that moment I realised that something needed to be done. On the morning of the London Marathon I got up at 6 AM and ran for 40 minutes, non stop. To be honest I am surprised I can still manage to run for this length of time. It was a beautiful morning, the sun was coming up it was fresh. I had time to think. I enjoyed it. In fact, I think it was just what I needed to get myself back into running.

Don’t get me wrong, I realise that I am not FAT, I am a size 12-14, but I am fat for me. Quite apart from not wanting to purchase an entirely new wardrobe I am concerned about my heath, I want to have the energy to look after the children properly. Therefore its my pledge to spend more money on the shopping, eat less biscuits and do more exercise.


5 Responses

  1. Muddling Along 18th April 2011 / 9:19 am

    Its about being a shape / size you are comfortable with – good on your for getting out there and running, I find the first outing is hardest and then it sort of falls into place (well sort of, depending on having childcare etc)<br /><br />Keep on running !

  2. Wendy 18th April 2011 / 10:47 am

    I really know where you are coming from! I am also a size 12 – 14 and oscillate from a few good days of eating healthily to more than a few &#39;bad&#39; days. Biscuits, sandwiches and unhealthy snacks are cheaper and easier!

  3. ANB 18th April 2011 / 11:49 am

    Man, colleagues who say you are plump need to take a good course in old fashioned manners!

  4. Mark 19th April 2011 / 9:17 pm

    I hear two stories her: one light hearted and other heavy hearted. All my life I have searched for security – it does (perhaps should say &#39;can&#39;) come eventually, but never as completely as we&#39;d like. As for your colleagues calling you plump – part of me says, tell them to get a life; the other part says &#39;hey running is good – enjoy&#39;

  5. Kirsty 20th April 2011 / 12:29 pm

    Good stuff – I am the same size and need to get my arse in gear too. I make so many excuses to myself: have a tiff with the husband so I need a bit spoonful of nutella to cheer me up. Tired and flagging after a day with the kids – stuff a quick biscuit or two in while making their tea. Like you say, I need to think about my health. <br /><br />Your colleagues sound incredibly rude, though – I

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